Fallen Leaves

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I’m at my breaking point. I don’t believe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. I can’t tie a knot strong enough at the end of my rope. I’m going to have a breakdown and then maybe people will take me seriously. Sometimes you have to act crazy before people will take you and your feelings seriously.

Please tell me I’m not the only one that has ever felt those feelings. For me, I had a season of I can’t! I can’t be around this person anymore. I can’t please people. I can’t do anything right. I can’t take the stress that you are adding to my life. I just can’t.

That was a season that I would love to forget. A season that taught me some of life’s toughest lessons. A season that almost broke me into a million pieces.

I was praying but I had no faith. Everything that I touched was ruined. No matter how hard I was trying to make things right.

Recently, I made a list of all of the things that brought me happiness in the past week. When I looked at the list. I focused on how I could bring happiness to someone else. Because in turn that would give me joy. I needed to create my own happiness.

It has been a struggle. The events that I thought I let go. I realized they were still in my life. As the leaves fall and change color. The leaves of my life must fall also. We are all fighting a battle. We are all fighting the good fight, with the hopes of finding happiness.

Do you need to let go? Let go of the guilt? Let go of the shame and pain that torments you. Let go of the love you lost and the mistakes that you made. Now is the time and the season to accomplish this goal.

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