An article listed that there is an 80% divorce rate in marriages of children with autism. I have been divorced for three and a half years. My struggles in my marriage began before Sydney was born. I fought even harder to save my marriage after receiving Sydney’s diagnosis four years later. I hate it when people say that Sydney caused my divorce. My ex-husband had a great get of our jail free card to use if he wanted to. I made the difficult choice to file for divorce first.
Most of you know that I started dating again. You may recall I was dating Alpha 1906. Well, we are not dating anymore. Thank God I didn’t change my FB relationship status and post our pictures. I admit for a minute I was feeling like Carrie in Sex in City when Berger broke up with her on a post it note. Seriously, dating after divorce is hard. Dating in your 40’s is harder. Dating and raising a child with autism, now that is a challenge.
But I am hopeful. I have heard from friends with children with special needs and they have found love again. In my heart I know that it takes a special person to love another man’s children. But the heart of champion to love and embrace a child with special needs that is not his own.
I have been looking for love in all the wrong places. Isn’t that a song? Anyways I will continue to work on my qualities that will make me a wonderful partner and let love find me. Maybe I will meet a neurologist or a developmental pediatrician. Or perhaps a single dad that is raising his children. You never know. I have decided that I will be fine. I was married for 14 years. After my divorce I was broken but look at me now. I shine bright like a diamond.