Have you ever been knocked down? When was the last time you felt defeated? Have you ever been so exhausted that you couldn’t walk? Has it ever been so bad that all you could do was crawl?
If you answered yes to any of those questions, don’t feel bad. I have been in that place many times. Last week I was mad at myself for allowing others to knock me down. It wasn’t a physical altercation. They knocked me down with their comments and with their actions. It takes a lot to surprise me. I guess there are times when you let your guard down and others sneak in for the attack. Then there are times when you get comfortable in a relationship or friendship and you find out others had different motives.
Another reason why I was knocked down was my plantar fasciitis. I cried like a baby because I could barely put pressure on my foot. Then I started thinking. Well since I am knocked down I might as well pray. This time my prayers didn’t flow. I would pray and then I started making the grocery list in my head. So I tried singing a song to get my praise on. That didn’t turn out well either. I couldn’t block out the world to pray.
The problem was that I was holding in so much anger about a particular situation. I believe in closure. I don’t have to have the final word. But I need to express my feelings about the situation. So that I can move on. Until I cleared my head I would not be able to focus and pray.
Picture this. Me doing the army crawl across the floor. Not a pretty picture. Part of me just wanted to grab a blanket and pillow. Make a fort and call it a night. Then I remembered I don’t give up. The best I can do is crawl, and that is what I did. I knelt beside my bed, feeling like a kid again.
“Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep. Angels watch me through the night. Until I wake till morning light.
Next, I finally felt a sense of peace. I was able to overcome the hurdle I was facing. No matter how high and mighty you think you are. Your world as you know it can come crumbling down in an instant. Sometimes we need to have a humbling experience to help us put areas of our lives in perspective. I have chosen to share my journey with you and it’s not always happy, happy, joy, joy. Don’t let a situation keep you down. Sometimes we need to be reminded that we had to crawl before we could walk.
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I think that I am getting stronger with each post.