Waiting on results has to be one of the most painful things for me. I should be use to it by now. But I am not. I am not a great test taker either. So, taking tests in school was torture. But waiting to see how well I did or didn’t do was the real … More The Test Results Are In
I think it was an episode of Greys Anatomy I was watching. The patient could hear and see everything that was going on. But couldn’t speak, and couldn’t move. Seeing the distress in their eyes made me empathize with how they felt. I was in an autism coma for many years. I was walking through … More Autism Coma
My hands are shaking and my forehead is sweating. I feel like a preacher in the Baptist church. I need my hand towel to wipe the sweat from my brow. They can’t tell I am nervous. Well, maybe the people sitting in the front row can. Now my hands are shaking as I adjust the … More But, I Survived Part 2
I remember the days when I would drive out of my way to avoid Sydney seeing a park. The sight of a park would spark screeching, screams, and a tantrum. This was before she had the language to express that she wanted to go to the park. If we went to the park. It would … More The Day She Tried to Make a Friend
Diamonds sparkle but you can never find a penny when you need one. At least that is the case for me. We all need reminders. We set them on our phone. We use post it notes and write a to do list that never ends. There are times when you need reminders of what you … More Are You A Diamond Or A Penny?
He used to talk my ear off. Ask me questions about my day. Complain about moving to Delaware and ask me if Sydney would be autistic forever. Things are different lately. He still talks but only in one word answers. Is this a teenage thing? How much do I pry? I can always check his … More You Better Not Eat a Tide Pod
They are all going to laugh at me. They are all going to laugh at me. Did that happen before they poured pigs blood on Sissy Spacek in Carrie? I can’t remember. But that is how I felt walking into Cantwells Tavern on my birthday, February 14th, Valentine’s Day, the day of love. I couldn’t … More Table For One Please
How could I dread February 14th? I was born on Valentine’s Day way back in 1972. Yes, I will be 46 years old in ten days. The last five years taught me that love is still possible. Please don’t hate on my birthday. Better known to me as the day of love. The roses, candy … More Valentines, Galentines, Novalentines?
“Mom, is this a paternity test?” “So dad is not our dad?” Then Sydney chimes in with, “do we need a step dad?” Is it five o’clock yet? Let me back up for a minute. Yesterday at our family meeting I was going to tell the children about the genetic testing that we are doing … More Mom, Is This A Paternity Test?
One of my favorite lines from a movie is from Field of Dreams. “If you build it. They will come” Well, I think that if you believe in something it will happen. Not right away or at the snap of your fingers. But if you hold on it will happen. For every doctor that told … More It’s All In Your Head
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